Haha! I'm glad you're in a joking mood, that's really great.

Thanks. My mom says I could be a comedian when I grow up.

Then again, its like I said. I have to laugh or Ill cry.

Sounds like it!

And I get it.

im heading to a counseler at 5 today.

wish me luck.

and again, thanks.

i hope i dont mess anything up.

i went to the counseler.

things worked out.

talking helps me.

not much.

im crying, because i learned now why i hate myself.

and now that im aware of my faults,

i want to die even more.

im alone.

im crying.

failing school.

missing everything.

trying to get away.

i want nothing more than death.

nothing more.

Do not die. Think of all those you'll hurt. You're not alone. Think of all the happy times with friends and family. You'd be missing them. They'd the missing you. So will we. Don't do it.

i know.

thats why i want to.

because i hurt everyone.

You don't hurt everyone. Where did you get that idea? If you do it you'd be hurting them so much. You wouldn't want to do that, would you?

but i hurt them by failing school, and being horrible to myself. and i dont want to hurt them anymore. thats why i want to dissapear. so i cant hurt them further.