Thank you. And yeah, its a start, but Im getting there.

I'm always here if you need to talk, I hope you know that.

THank you. Ill talk sometime in the future, maybe.

today is ok.

but i feel sad.

empty.

numb.

and im alone.

iv been thinking.

im lost.

and im scared of myself and the future.

well, my life is out of my hands.

weird, no?

my teacher found out that im playing games. im expecting to be grounded. i also realized i play to escape reality and the stress. im not ready.

iv gotten a counseler. a real one. and im going there soon. not sure when.

i hate myself, and what i do.

who i am.

and i cant do anything in front of anyone.

im so sorry for every bad thing iv done here, guys.

thank you for standing by me.

goodbye, at least for a little while.

ill try to RP, but its gonna be hard, i think.

im sorry.

its funny.

im too scared to hurt myself.

but its all i want to do.

i have to laugh, or ill cry.

i have to fake a smile, or ill run.

i have to be alone, or i wont be here.

i live in my shadow, which is fading away.

again, im so sorry, everyone.

Please don't be sorry. There's nothing to apologize for.

You're not doing anything wrong whatsoever. Hurting yourself is not the way out of your problems. I don't mean to offend, but I am glad you're too scared to hurt yourself. I'm sure many have already said this, but hurting or suicide is a coward's way out of problems. You're not a coward. Not in my eyes. You'd have to be very brave to come up and say these things up front.

I'm glad you've gotten someone you can talk to. It'll help, really.

While you're gone, if you're gone, we and everyone else are always with you. You're not alone.

We will always stand by you. So will others. Family, friends. Don't ever, and I mean ever forget that.

Thank you. And turns out, Im forgiven right now. Yay :)

And trust me. I wont forget.

That's great! See, I told you they trusted you.

Its mostly because my teacher called them LOL.