I hate this stupid life.

On top of my depression,
-I have an abusive stepdad who breaks baskets on my head and throws me across rooms
-A mother who can't do anything about it because she has a disease called Scleroderma with no cure and the fact that she could die any moment because it affects her lungs
-A father who leeches money off of our mom and doesn't pay for child support
-No where to go. If I tell the police, Cudd and I would most likely end up with our father
-Afraid of telling anybody I know irl in fear that somehow we'll end up with our father

I don't know.
I just don't know what to do.

My apologies for not being very active, etc. I've been trying. But on top of everything...I just don't know if I can too much anymore.
*sigh*

I just...I just don't know what to do.
I'm scared. Scared for my mom's life and scared for what will happen next.

Those are some really hard life choices. I'm sure many people have suggestions, but it's ultimately up to you to do what you feel is the best option. :(

Awe, I am so sorry Typh.


This probably doesn't help since I know almost nothing about the law, but you really should try getting ahold of someone.

The police and CPS is all I can think of. I'll think of a solution and ping you if I have an idea.



How does your real dad treat you? It sounds as though he treats you better than your stepdad, so wouldn't it be better with him?

I'm sorry. If you can try to arrange something so that if your mom dies you can live with friends or other relatives. If you have any real-life friends go to them and they can probablly help you. But on the end what you do is up to you, I can only suggest things that might not even help. They also have agencies to take away abusive parents.
-Homera

P.S. If you can lock the Step-dad out of the house DO IT!
If you can try to tell the police and say "I know that my dad and/or stepdad is unsuitable to take care of us"

Ty, I'm very sorry to hear about this.

I had plenty of issues with my stepdad too(though the abuse I suffered from mine was more verbal, emotional, and food theft[he'd eat food my mom portioned out for me...which in part resulted in me never getting enough food at home]).

Do you have any super close extended family or possibly really good friends(possibly family friends) that might be able to give you somewhere to visit when things are toughest? Not live with but visit with them till you feel you can handle things? I use to visit one friend and her family often as a kid cause I didn't like being around my stepdad. In high school I lived part time with extended family because my stepdad had gotten worse... I found that it helped some, while it didn't provide a permanent solution it did provide me with a safe place I could go to IF things got really awful.

Please PM me if you'd like.

*hugs LDD*
The only place I could think of staying is my aunt's, but I don't know how that'd work out.

I'm sorry to hear about your stepdad troubles. Especially since it happened to such a nice and amazing person.

I don't know what I can do about the situation, and I don't want to tell people in real life because I just...I don't know how they'd react to it and what would happen to me and Cudd. I don't want to leave my mom, especially not at a time like this.

Well, maybe you can visit your aunt on weekends? Just tell her, that you and Cudd miss her and would live to spend time with her.

Thanks...it's part of why I try so hard to help/be supportive of others. My mom was really sick all the time too, and as much as I loved my mom I couldn't put up with my stepdads bullpoop after I reached being in my late teens. He didn't treat my mom very good either after a point...which really made me mad...thing is that my mom couldn't do much because she was too sick. My mom was also always working too.


I understand where you're coming from...and I know it's tough....but my inactions I think led to my mother's passing... Had I acted sooner then maybe she would have more motivation/drive to try and get better.

You need to try to protect you and Cudd. Do you have councilor at your school, or maybe IF you go to church you could get general advice? I know that you don't want to leave your mom, and that you don't want to tell people because you're afraid....but sometimes in times like this inactions can be just as bad...and from what I can tell you my have no choice but to say/do something....the wellbeing of you and your loved ones may at stake.

**hugs you very tightly**

I'm sorry to hear about your troubles. I can sympathize with you in some regards. I never wanted to leave my mother. She had sever bi-polar depression she was taking meds for and was a recovering alcoholic. She was dating a guy with the same bi-polar disorder. They met in the hospital. He still let his ex-wife lead him around on a leash. It got to point where she got drunk and took her meds as usual before bed. They weren't supposed to mix. She never woke up. I found her the next morning. I wasn't abused by either of my parents but since I grew up with a learning disorder, I ended up being abused by teachers and other kids. So I have a very low a self-esteem despite the bravado I put on. At 8 years old, I had a teacher tell me straight to my face that I was a stupid child and wouldn't amount to anything in my life I was a troubled child obviously. Now I'm an introvert who plays games all the time and doesn't go outside much.

I would suggest going to the school councilor and explain that you're worried that, in the event of your mother's passing, you might end up with your abusive step father or neglectful father. It's hard telling people about these things. I know it all too well, but once you tell one person in real life about, it gets easier. There are more people out there willing to help then you know. Heck, if I lived by you, I would say you could stay at my place and I would file the complaints for you so you wouldn't have to. I've watched to many kids fall into this downward spiral to want to stand back and do nothing, but to you, I'm just a person behind a screen. I'm not there, and you're not here so I can't help from my end in the way I want to.

If you need evidence of you're step-father being abusive, a recorder in your pocket would do. Turn it on while you know he is home, or use your phone or computer to record it. Turn up the microphone sensitivity.

And your afraid to talking in person, write it down and leave it on a teacher's desk. Unlike the teachers I grew up with, the teachers being employed now are much more considerate and caring. Especially if you seek out a female teacher since they actually react right. Men just don't know what to do if a girl starts crying.

And if you need, I'm always on here and my PS4 is always on if you happen to have one. My gamer tag there is Wrayth_Pariah and I can actually talk to you without needing to type on there. Or broadcast and respond to you verbally on Twitch. Should still show up as Wrayth_Pariah. Just call me if you need anything.

I feel so bad for all of you. I hope in the end everything will be alright.