Last Tuesday I found out I'm going blind. Then Friday I had a tooth removed. Then later friday my fiance leaves me because he can't deal with my medical problems and said he'll come back once I have them under control. I tried to kill myself, just to be rid of the pain. Except it obviously didn't work. I got admitted to the hospital and realized I deserve better. I deserve someone who will be there when I need them. I should probably mention he has been living with his ****** of an ex since febuary. The meds they gave me make me feel numb. But my heart still hurts. I've been trying to keep myself busy but I still feel sad. We were together 4 years.

Poor you. I need glasses too, got them on Wednesday. *Sighs* And I have to move from my house.

At least glasses help you. My eyes are just stopping working.

Your not alone in the dark world...it's not too bad... I hope you feel better soon. *hugs* And don't kill yourself...really. :| I'll be there for you, and a lot of other people.

He killed a piece of me. he tought me not to get close to people

Man... :x That's not very good...

There is NOBODY in this world and I mean NOBODY, that is worth you taking your own life!
He wasn't good for you any way...anyone with half a heart and some understanding, that has been with you that long wouldn't just leave like that.
His day will come....and hopefully for you a better man will come along to you in the future.
Many years ago I was diagnoses with some type of degenerative eye disease that caused my eyes to grow worse as I grew older, eventually causing me tolose most of my sight........but miraculously for some strange reason over the last few years my eyes have been actually growing better! I went in for an eye exam a few years back thinking my eyeglass prescription had gotten way worse and much to my surprise the eye doctor told me my eyes went in reverse and have gotten much better and my glasses were actually too strong.....to the point I really only use them for driving now

So you never know what the future can hold in store for you!

Be strong hang in there, and do what you just did here...share with your friends and don't hold things inside.
Most people are much nicer than that ex boyfriend of yours!

~HUGS~

They have put me on ativan so I dont feel anything right now

Oh, Akito... Mortis is right. You CANT let him control your life. Do you like him? Was he good to you? Really, I can't give much advice because I don't know enough about life, but no one can tell you what to do. Only you can tell yourself what to do.

Look, this might sound a bit harsh but if he left you when you needed help then you clearly deserve better
It might of been a bad week but look for the light at the end of the tunnel, possabily someone who will love you no matter what happens or a friend you can always rely on
Because the week might be bad you just have to keep looking for the light even if you think it's not there, because it is there
And you shouldn't worry about other people disapointing you like he did, few people do so because practically everyone you will meet in life will be a supporting shoulder

Also if you need any comforting support go to family or friends, or even come here if you want...sylestia is like a big family in a way