just a tiny check in for whoever sees this because I'm too lazy to ping

I'm going vegetarian for a week so this might be exciting. Last time I went vegetarian I lasted probably 3 days before I ate some bacon.
All I've noticed is that it's made me a more conscious eater and that I haven't even reached a recommended calorie deficit for someone of my age so I'm gonna go eat a bunch of cereal

also, shameless plug for the thread where I'll be keeping my thoughts of being vegetarian - here

People worry about small things altered in the past changing the present, but never consider the small things we do in the present that could shape the future.

I live with my dad's mom and stepdad, and they tell a lot of stories about when my dad and aunts were younger. They also admit things my dad did that weren't very good, but I prefer talking about the good things. People talk about enough bad things. He set both a good and bad example for me to learn from, and I'm thankful he gave me that chance to better myself.

I hope you always know it's okay to be heard, and even if you don't have that at home there will always be people who want to help you and bring you happiness because they genuinely enjoy your company.

Those are really stupid things to be proud over. I'm just glad my mom knew to take care of herself and let her kids be with good people, and still keep in touch with them. I'm glad she's still living even though I know she's sad, and that she hasn't given up on finding love. I'm proud to have such a hard-working lady for a mom, and I want to work hard just like her so I can support her when she's older u-u Game devs make a lot of money, and it's something I like to do, so it's the best of both worlds.

I like the funny ads. I hope you keep getting ads you like. They not only are fun to see, but they also support monetized YouTubers. My cousin liked kpop for a while; maybe I'll try listening to some sometime :3 I liked jpop for a long while.

Sorry I'm acting weird... I lost faith in humanity and watched a bunch of wholesome memes and right now I have a weird, better outlook on life. People are probably gonna hate me for a while, but I hope we can keep talking because it's lonely out here and I like learning things from you.

mm yeah. I suppose a lot of people don't want their present to change though. Personally I would rather not have a lot of change within my life because stability keeps me stable and just helps me keep up. That outlook is different though and I think people should think about it more as well ^-^

I know some other things about my aunts, uncles, and parents. My mom used to go to the family lake house, that we still go to once a year, with her family and other distant relatives. I watched a few films they had on it, I've always wondered what going there with more than just my family would be like. I don't have very many cousins my age, only 2, and even though they live 10 minutes away I don't really get to see them.
My dad and mom both grew up with horses and rode a lot. My dad went to the same school I do now for a year or two before he moved again. He spent a lot of his life moving around.

>.< I read that a few times and I'm tearing up but thank you. I'm not really good with answering back to stuff like this so I don't really know what to say except thank you :)

Everything is a competition for everyone, I don't really see the point in it. Your mom sounds really inspiring ^-^
I think everyone should work on bettering themselves before comparing themselves to others or trying to compete with someone. I don't see how treating yourself badly can make you cool or seem edgy.

I get mostly fitness ads and dieting stuff. I like the side ads you see on websites more than the ads you get on YouTube because they're less distracting and don't block anything. I followed a few people I used to really like on a few different social media platforms so that's a step in the right direction. I have a whole list of people to check out. I think I tried getting into jpop a year or two ago but I couldn't find anyone I really liked :/

It's completely fine ^-^ Wholesome memes are the solution to everything! It isn't right to stop being friends or talking to someone because their outlook has changed, even just for a little while, so you don't have to worry, and I like learning new things from you too :D

I have so much homework so I should probably get on that because I've been on the same page in my science book for the past 30 minutes...

I don't get to see my cousins a lot either, but a lot of them are my age. My friends and cousins who don't play video games keep beating me at them... and I don't understand but I'm glad they're willing to play and enjoy victories. Once I met one of my cousins for the first time I could remember, and she discovered I was a nerd. She called me 'loser' for the remainder of our time together. It wasn't to be mean or anything, she just did it. Like a little inside joke. She was very nice and showed me around the park we were at and stopped someone in the middle of training their dog so we could pet it and they could talk to each other about training dogs :3

Two of my grandpas rode a lot, but I haven't really had a chance to. I did get to ride horses at this one camp, and I really liked my horse. His name was Whiskey and they said he was the Alpha horse. We got along well XD I got to be at the front of every trail cuz that's where Whiskey liked to be, and he just kinda did everything automatically without me having to do much.

She is to me. I'm glad you find my mom that way, too :3

Maybe that girl thinks it makes her sound tough or something... who knows. I hope she learns taking care of herself is okay ;-;

Dieting ads are gross 0-o the stuff they want you to eat is too odd and everything looks so sterile, like it was filmed in a doctor's office. AND, they don't want you eating FAT!!! Fat=flavor u-u If I'm gonna eat, I wanna enjoy my food

The jpop I listened to was vocaliod... it's these computer-generated voices. I dunno, I just liked it.

Good luck with the homework ;w; If it makes you feel better, I procrastinated my science work for a week

Awh wow. I wish I had a relationship like that with my cousins. I usually just tease the one that's my age about how he plays piano and his current girlfriends and then I watch my year older one draw. They could both totally kick my butt in video games though because they both play like everyday. They have two different gaming rooms, though one also doubles as a living room. They have chickens too so when I deem it warm enough I'll ask to go play with them for a while.

I used to be too short to ride anything but a pony so I was really excited to finally move onto an actual horse. My mom had a friend at the time who owned horses so I got lessons there. The horse ended up passing away a few years back because of her stomach getting twisted or something? I'm not very sure sure after that she sold her other horse and stopped letting people board their horses there. Then they moved down to South Carolina and I've seen them once since then.
I was riding at this barn before corona and it was fun. I really like one horse named Calvin who is this huge white gentle giant. He trips sometimes when I ride but that's okay because he's such a sweetheart. Then there's my other favorite who I'm a bit nervous to ride now because he threw me once but his name is Ozzie.

Maybe, I mean she doesn't surround herself with the best crowd so I wouldn't bet on any improvement happening anytime soon. I hope she's been getting more sleep though because I was just on a zoom call to take a quiz and she looked like she didn't get much sleep.

I get them because I used to research them quite a bit. I was really interested in what went through people's minds when they dieted or like had problems with food. I still am, the brain is such an odd thing and it can suck sometimes but it really interests me. Personally I don't mind the healthy foods or the dieting foods. It'd be hard to avoid fat though because it's in a lot of foods, just like carbs. Diets don't make much sense if they don't come from a certified nutritionist or dietitian; even then they can seem kinda iffy.
I researched them to the point where when I read that one of my assignments was to write a paper on a fad diet and my opinion on it I really just had to double check my facts before submitting it.

I used to listen to nightcore I think it was called? I don't know, it sounded really different though and I liked it so I listened to it

Thanks ^-^ I finished my science, the math from last week, I wrote out my health paper, I took a quiz, I finished the questions to the book we were reading, and I did something for a science debate we're going to have about approved vs unapproved drugs

AH, do not doubt yourself u-u my cousin hadn't touched a video game for many, many years, but we had a sleep-over and she kicked my butt in every game. Two game rooms??? I just hope my grandma lets me stay on my Switch in handheld mode for an hour or so while she watches old movies @-@ I can't imagine... a room for gaming... a game room... two... this is beyond science. My dating partner gets little baby chickens every year, and this year I would be able to poke them. They get confused when I say 'poke', but I always just explain that it's polite to poke before the cuddle. Then there was the outbreak... so we're in quarantine and I don't get to poke this year :T so I make sure he pokes them for me. Chickens are an absolute delight.

There's supposed to be a huge science behind the 'gentle giant' horses vs the more aggressive mini horses. I can tell it if you like ^w^ I use it as an excuse to be salty sometimes....
The horse place had a horse named Diesel, and he was supposed to be pretty mean. But since the people recognized me, they said I would ride him (it was my second time there, for a different camp). He bucked at one point near the end but I didn't fall off, instead the kid behind me fell. Diesel also didn't like staying in line, so I kept having to get him back on track. At one point he walked to the trunk of a pine tree with low branches for a good scratch. So that was p l e a s a n t -n-
Twisted stomachs are terrible ;-; I see cows and horses get them on a vet show I watch, it's very damaging and a terrible way to go. It at least sounds like the horse had a good life beforehand

Cool! What're your findings on that so far ^w^
Healthy food's fine as long as it tastes good u-u I like veggies and fruits, I like homemade chicken noodle soup, I like carrot cake, I even like oatmeal cookies. It's the protein shakes and odd nasty looking stuff that I don't like... the 'abnormal' stuff 0-o
^{_{The sheer luck of that 0o0 good for you!}}

Oh yeah, my cousin had me listen to Nightcore the first of the year. i was pretty into it, but then started listening to songs by the actual artists and liked those, too :3 I don't listen to it anymore, but I'm glad my cousin helped me find artists I love

Holy garbage you done more than I done in over a month 0-o Well then :T

I am feeling the big sad, but if it thinks it can win this battle, it has another think comin cuz I'm the best at coming up with excuses and I will hang on to anything to keep from deleting my save file. I would take away the big sad from all of you if I could, no one should feel so unhappy ever and you should focus on making yourselves the best you can be so you can continue to spread happiness to others.

Been two weeks, still waiting for a part so I can properly play Wind Waker on the Wii. It works and all, but I can't save. Made it to Forbidden Forest, somehow made it that far without dying (which would make the game try to start me from last save, which I do not have). Considering I'm terrible at the game, it's a flat-out miracle. It was only to get comfortable with the controls, the game didn't have to go so easy on me T-T
Link's expressions in that game are the absolute best. When I activate 'sneak boi' and walk, he stares to the side he's walking toward, one eyebrow raised and with a tight frown that makes me smile so hard my eyes water a little. Every time. I don't care the game was made when I was, it's still beautiful and Nintendo should be proud of the bar they set through their hard work. I have a lot to live up to :3

Keep doing my back in. Can't straighten it at this point. Which is fine cuz I always slouch anyway.

I don't care if the dog is virtual, if I can't pet him to let him know he's a good boy, you need to update your game. (*cough* hardworking Nintendo folks i know you're tired but those stable dogs bring us to treasure boxes like good boys, pls let me pet)

My dating partner made me cry last night. I told them I was thankful they tolerated me cuz I know I'm hard to be with, and they said they didn't care, what was a relationship without patience and that they loved me no matter what and I think about that a lot cuz when I talked to them before they pointed out I was hard to understand at times and I was worried I was making our relationship fall apart.

Just cuz I'm basically a virtual friend doesn't mean I don't care about you, homies. my brain physically cannot sort real friends from online friends anymore like it used to and I sincerely wish happiness and cute animals on all your houses.Hang in there and we'll get through this life together or I will personally consume my entire person.

Join my feelz train if ya like
even if not I hope you get to pet a happy, friendly animal of your preference this day

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"I HAVE CRUMBLED TO THE FLOOR
...but yet I live... I am so strong!"

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