What you are about to read is a true story!
I am the youngest person in my family, and my sister and brother ignore me, and the only one who made me feel like she actually cared was my great aunt Karen, who died of breast cancer when I was three. I get lonely and have small depression fits and sometimes cry because of this, and I really only understand my animals at home, as my mother has talked to me about it, but never really done anything (also, one of my other friends has commented on this portion and asked me, "Also, you said before that you tell your mom about them ignoring you, and she doesn't do anything. What do you want her to do? That might seem like a silly question, but she might not be doing something about it because she doesn't know what to do, not because she doesn't care." That made me realize something, that mom probably really doesn't know how to help.). As I said, I get lonely very fast, and I'd like to be able to be open and honest about this to everybody, but I just can't. That's why it makes me happy when I get messages and pings, so please don't be afraid to message me about anything, who knows, I may be able to help you with some things if you're a new player!
It also makes me happy when people tell me that my ideas are great, because it makes me feel appreciated.
If you read this, thank you, it really means a lot.

~Topaz

Hello Topaz,

I would like to extend my hand to you, please message me and I'll share my story with you along with what wisdom/advice I have...and maybe what I have to say/share will help you out.

A little of that story reminded me of myself. But my family care but my friend at school never listen to what I say. Lucky my animals always cheer me up. Animals always cheer people up why can't my friend be sweet like animals. (They are not really my friend cause they don't care about me)

I was an only child to a single parent who I never got along with.

When my best friend, my great grandma died, my mother "forgot" to tell me about her death until around 8pm that night after we had spent the afternoon with friends, laughing and having a good time like nothing was wrong.

She told me I shouldn't cry, that I had to go to school the next day and I couldn't attend the funeral. At school, not a single person cared even a little bit. it was "Oh your great grandma died? that sucks. So anyway did you watch that show last night?"

I couldn't get a hold of my dad for about three days and when I finally did, he just seemed really hesitant. Later I came to find out it was b/c the day my GG died, he and his wife had secretly run off to get married. Something they hid from me until almost 2 years later.

Unlike you, I didn't have any animals, my mother wouldn't allow it.

Long story short, I was completely alone. I had people telling me all kinds of awful things b/c of the depression. One time, my dad, step-mom, her sister and my mother all cornered me in a room and berated me for over an hour telling me everything they didn't like about me and what an awful person I was. (This was because I was depressed but they didn't want to admit it and try to help me, so instead they were all angry with me and decided it was a good idea to gang up on a 15 year old.)

I think it is important to mention here that I wasn't a bad kid. I didn't drink or do drugs or party or any of that stuff. I got good grades and pretty much just kept to myself.

I've been where you've been. And this is really hard for me to post in a public forum. But I'm doing it b/c you and others who have been through/ are going through something like this need to know that there are others out there who care/ have been through it and you are not alone.

It gets better. I worked my way out of it by myself without help. I made manager at 20, bought my first house by myself at 21, am engaged to a wonderful guy, and own a small zoo. I am working towards my master's degree and I have slowly begun to make amends with a few of the people from my past (my mother, father, and slowly (and a bit hesitantly, my step mom))

I don't regret what I went through as painful as it was/is because it helped to make me a better, stronger person.

I'm here if you or anyone else (I mean anyone else) needs someone to talk to. Not to judge you, but to talk to you.

I think i may cry...

Your story just touched me that deeply..(the smile is a little out of place in there...=.=)

Thank you so much for sharing this, it will really help me as i grow and learn more things.

(( @ Topaz i know where you got those small icons from! ))

Yep, Howrse!

Wow such beautiful and heartbreaking stories you two have bravely shared ;n; Somehow I feel kinda bad that nothing too bad has really happened to me so to speak- at least nothing on your guys' level. Then again, one person's past may mean nothing to another but to that person at least it was the most painful thing ever.

Its especially awesome when I hear the people overcome stuffs from the darkest of pasts. I'm not sure what else I can say other than TopazWolf good luck in your life, and you can overcome yourself like Darkwingedangel has~ >w<

I'm very sorry for your loss.

*Hugs both* I can't do a whole lot but I do have a friend who is a cutter. A friend that used to be a cutter and then two friends that are suicidal. I try to help them, but it is difficult because I also have my times of depression and wondering what I'm even here for.

Thankfully I've gotten great friends in recent years to help me so the times of depression have been spaced a lot farther apart then they used to be. Mine is not a very strong story and I've never told anyone everything, but I think they may understand me more then I understand myself most of the time. I'm really grateful that you guys decided to share these stories. They really do touch me deeply.