I have two younger siblings who always want to fight. It's really hard not to give in.


I wish I had a twin. Are you guys identical twins?

Fraternal. I'm the oldest.

Which, according to everyone, is surprising. I kinda agree. I'm smaller and weaker than my brother. And super skinny. And I like playing video games like this to get away from reality (and him, a bit).

There's twins in my class and they're fraternal, too. The youngest one is taller than the oldest. And I play video games all the time, like Minecraft, Starstable, etc., etc.

...

...that's not creepy at all

Maybe I know you in real like ILLUMINATI

I play Fortnite, mine craft, YouTube (I watch it so much it just counts), this, etc

Wait what am I saying that doesn't describe me XD

Sorry, tired and confused. Like always.

Don't worry. Most of the time I can't talk right because I'm so tired. And yeah, thats....interesting....

What's interesting?

Also GTG, if I don't sleep ill pass out and get caught

PM me so we can chat without filling this up.

Night!

How yah doin'?


Also hey I don't know if you're religious at all or anything, but these are some quotes that I love to help me get through hard times. so uh, ya

"Our Savior, the Good Shepherd, knows and loves us. he knows and loves you.
He knows when you are lost, and He knows where you are. He knows your grief. Your silent pleadings. Your fears. Your tears.
It matters not how you became lost-whether because of your own poor choices or because of circumstances beyond your control.
What mattes is that you are His child. And He loves you. He loves His children."
He Will Place You on His Shoulders and Carry You Home-Dieter F. Uchtdorf

"It was a Friday filled with devastating, consuming sorrow that gnawed at the souls of those who loved and honored the Son of God.
I think that of all the days since the beginning of this world's history, that Friday was the darkest.
But the doom of that day did not endure.
The despair did not linger because on Sunday, the resurrected Lord burst the bonds of death. ...
...
Each of us will have our own Fridays- those days when the universe itself seems shattered and the shards of our world lie littered about us in pieces. We all will experience those broken times when it seems we can never be put together again. We will all have our Fridays.
But I testify to you in the name of the One who conquered death-Sunday will come. In the darkness of our sorrow, Sunday will come."
Sunday Will Come-Joseph B. Wirthlin

"Never give up-however deep the wounds of your soul, whatever their source, wherever or whenever they happen, and however short or long they persist, you are not meant to perish spiritually. You are meant to survive spiritually and blossom in your faith and trust in God."
Wounded-Neil L. Anderson

And a non religious one:

"When we plant a rose seed in the earth, we notice that it is small, but we do not criticize it as 'rootless and stemless.' We treat it as a seed, giving it the water and nourishment required of a seed. When it first shoots up out of the earth, we don't condemn it as immature and underdeveloped; nor do we criticize the buds for not being open when they appear. We stand in wonder at the process taking place and give the plant the care it needs at each stage of its development. The rose is a rose from the time it is a seed to the time it dies. Within it, at all times, it contains its whole potential. It seems to be constantly in the process of change; yet at each state, at each moment, it is perfectly all right as it is."
W. Timothy Gallwey, The Inner Game of Tennis: The Classic Guide to the Mental Side of Peak Performance

Thanks. I'm doing good. And thanks for the quotes, I really needed that.

12-18-18

todays doing ok. lifes ok. but im falling apart. im moping all the time, not commiting in school, and crying when alone. im sneaking time on my phone because its one of the only things that makes me happy. im coming on here more and more often. and... im scared.

im scared ill kill myself.

im scared ill crack and hurt someone.

im scared of myself.

im losing my mind.

and i dont want to die

but im scared

i

will.

12-19-18

im scared

my nightmares have returned, and im thinking about suicide more and more often. i dont want to die, but im worried i will.

today is stressful, like every other day. and when i try to be alone, i cant.

im scared.

my New Years resolution - live until New Years. then try to keep living.