Part of me is excited for next year, but the other part of me has seen the high school and knows that I would get lost without leaving the main room, and since our school isn't having us tour the school like they did when we were transitioning from elementary to middle I am going to have no idea where the classrooms are.

I totally agree with the hoodie part, I get way too uncomfortable when I don't have a jacket or a hoodie on, I've been doing better on it recently but even now I have to at the very very least have a jacket tied around my waist or else I will almost completely become hyper-fixated on it and freeze up.

I also can't for some reason write when I'm in class? for some reason my brain tries to make me think everyone is staring at what I'm writing and judging me when I know that most of them are literally just either reading stressing about their assignments, or trying to decide what song they want to play on Spotify. The fact that we have map testing this week isn't exactly doing wonders for my social anxiety.

Yeah, I wasn't able to get a tour when I first arrived either. Just don't be afraid to ask your classmates or your teachers for help. I'm excited for next year cause a lot of my friends will be coming back from virtual :D
Some of these people I have not seen in a year, so I'm super happy to get to see them again.

afraid to ask my teachers and classmates? nahhhhh.......

*Says the child who has said 9-12 words to their PE, Multimedia, and math teacher individually throughout the entire year*

Yeah understandable, I don't like talking to my teachers, either.
It's odd cause I'm both the tiny harmless student who keeps to themselves and the student who draws the lovejoy album cover in chalk on the outdoor school basketball court, including the names of the songs (which are not so school friendlyyy (I then proceeded to stress over whether I would get in trouble or not for the next week))
I have no confidence, and then I have all the confidence. Makes no sense to me.

I don't like talking in general

I've thought about doing chalk stuff at school, but I wouldn't really have time.

My P.E. class goes outside. They don't make me play or anything so me and my friends on that class like to draw :D

Thanks for talking to me Amaniii, it's cool to know I'm not the only person who is hyper focused on random things.

I have to do a presentation over vaccines in front of a bunch of classmates who think vaccines are bad. Why do I choose such topics when my classmates are so judgmental? I dunno. I did a speech over homophobia and felt like I was gonna pass out. Maybe I should choose less controversial topics lol

I heard my classmate who chose homophobia as her topic for ELA make some really terrible points on it when she was explaining it to someone, like she reallllllly didn't do much research on the topic. As someone who actually faces homophobia, it was kinda aggravating to hear her explain it.
Part of me wants to read the article she wrote but the other part of me wants to set it ablaze.
and the third part of me kinda wants to rewrite it and compare notes.
but the fourth part of me also wants to commit arson- similar to the second part of me.

and the fifth part of me just remembered I skipped lunch :(

Aw no lunch :(

Mine was actually on the gay/trans panic defense and how it needs to be banned from court. I spent so much time on it that when I presented it it went over the five minute time limit. Longest speech I have given to this day. I'm surprised I managed to stay in character. I wrote it like I was a just an ally who wants equality, but in reality I'm just incredibly gay and fed up with society.