I second the idea of living with a relative. Oftentimes, CPS will try to place children with relatives if they can because the system is overburdened. Talk to your aunt. It's possible that you can go live with her and apply for government benefits to help with your expenses. If you live in the US, I think she could claim you on her taxes and get a bigger refund. If your mom does pass, you don't want to end up in the custody of an abusive step father.

*sit next to and pats on the back*

"Sometimes it is better to light a flamethrower than curse the darkness" -Terry Pratchett


I dont know if there is something like this in America, but in England there is a orginisation called Childline. They are for kids to talk to adults in a completly confidential situation, about anything, and mabey do something about it. Try looking for things like Childline. You're not alone. If you ever need anything, people will help. :)

Oh Typh. That's just way too much for anyone to go through. *hugs* having your mum be sick like that is enough for most people.

I wish I could help or offer suggestions. I can't all I can say is stay strlng bc one day it will be over and you'll have a happy life. (I hope. Just don't put up with one of those abusive husbands.) Stay strong, idk what kind of mental help you can get but maybe try to get some kind of counselor or psychologist. Maybe some help or support for Cudd too (though it would be up to them.)

I can't help. I'll always listen, own problems or not.

"Happiness can be found even in the darkest of times.. if one only remembers to turn the light on." -Albus Dumbledore

One thing;
Don't let the noose take over you. Don't let your skin even skim that knife. Don't let your tongue taste that poison. Don't. That's a permenant solution to a non-permanent situation. What do I say? Make the most of it. I know it's very hard, but try to find a way to distract yourself, but seriously, call the police. It's child abuse and if he kills you it's not likely he'll get caught. Try to find another relative or a friends that will let you stay with them if you really don't want to be with your father that much and take your mother along. I don't think you realize, not trying to be rude, that you could die from your head hitting a wall the wrong way. I'd like to think you don't want that.