As I'm pretty sure I've said before, there's nothing to be sorry about. I'm glad you're coming to us instead of keeping those feelings inside. Crying isn't a bad thing. Don't apologize. Sadness is inevitable whether we like it or not. It just takes time to overcome it. It will still be there, like a shadow. You will only notice it if you look for it. If the sun, or the good things that happen, are right above you, you won't really see your shadow. Where your shadow lies depends on the angle of the sun. When the sun sets, or good things go away, shadows lengthen. At the darkest times of life, search for the light. Know it will always be there, like the stars at night. Pay no attention to your shadow.
Fear is a monster. It lurks at the edge of Heaven. When you leave Heaven, in your case, the comfort of your home, the monster pounces. It tries to hold you down, but you must might it. Even the thought of something scary triggers the monster's senses. The only way to rid of your monster is to face it. Stand tall, stare it right in the face. It will back off. Eventually, the monster that once lurked at the edge of paradise will be a smoldering pile of ash.
Courage is key.
Dragonsrcool54
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Posted: 2/24/2019 at 9:28 AM
Post #142
I have been fighting every time I leave the house. But Im the one who runs. Im the one who backs off. And Im in an eclipse. There is no light to be found. Just shadow. Iv looked.
Thank you.
But Im still sorry.
For what, I dont know.
But I am.
Aura
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Posted: 2/24/2019 at 10:00 AM
Post #143
Running makes you weaker. The monster will chase you. There will always be light, like how stars disappear at daytime and the sun disappears at night. Even though you can't see it, it will still be there, sometimes just out of reach.
Dragonsrcool54
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Posted: 2/24/2019 at 10:22 AM
Post #144
...
I understand what you mean.
But I cant bring myself to try.
I havent been trying anything lately.
Aura
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Posted: 2/24/2019 at 10:39 AM
Post #145
I completely get it. Try and find the light on days that aren't so bad, maybe. It'll be easier, you won't be as blind. You need to stay strong. Push through. I know, it's easier said than done.
EDIT: Maybe listen to this when you can.. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=t76j5YtVciI
Edited By Aura on 2/24/2019 at 10:55 AM.
Dragonsrcool54
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Posted: 2/24/2019 at 11:07 AM
Post #146
Thanks. And Ill watch the video in a bit.
Aura
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Posted: 2/24/2019 at 12:39 PM
Post #147
Of course! I'm always here.
Dragonsrcool54
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Posted: 2/25/2019 at 5:05 PM
Post #148
Im broken.
We got new Chromebooks in school, along with new guidelines. Teachers are now going to check our history.
Im saddened, and upset.
I get why.
Doesnt help.
I come here to get away.
They wont let me get here at all.
So, I wont be on Sylestia during school days until after 3:00 game time. Ish.
And Im losing trust from my family.
Im crying when alone or at night.
Im not trying and ignoring the rules in school and at home.
I didnt get on my Chromebook, trying to resist the urge to play, and the teachers called my dad.
Now, hes pissed at me for not talking about it.
Im so sorry for not talking.
I cant bring myself to.
It hurts.
So.
MUCH.
Dragonsrcool54
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Posted: 2/26/2019 at 9:04 AM
Post #149
Well, you know when I said its out of my hands?
It really is now.
I emailed this forum to my teachers.
Sorry if you didnt want that.
I needed it.
They understand. So does my counseler.
They let me leave school early.
Mom and Dad understand, too.
Im going to the ER to talk about it.
Well, wish me luck.
And again,
Thank you.
Dragonsrcool54
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Posted: 3/7/2019 at 5:12 PM
Post #150
Iv been back for a week now.
Its fun.
I missed you all.
Im doing better.
I kinda want the free food the hospital had tho :p
So I was at the ER for a day, then got transferred to a special hospital for the rest of while I was gone. Some of you know that cuz I told them.
Sorry I was gone.
But Im back.
Yay.
:)
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