(Would you rather I just respond with 'k.'?)


Which is a bad thing.

(i mean, kinda. but it doesnt seem sincere. i appreciate responses, but i also appreciate people continuing with the request for longer than a day. you just dont really seem to care about our posts, our RPS, or even me. and that really hurts.)

ok.

(I do care about them. I spend hours trying to come up with concepts sometimes. What hurts for me is when you can't be bothered to write more than one word, instead of taking time to think of something to say like I do. And then say I don't care about the rps that I put a lot of effort into making and continuing.)

(...

god i feel like an @ s s hole.

ok, look. i put a lot of time into these RPs too, but i guess im not used to RPing with people with storylines and plots already planned out. i really dont mean any of the rude things i said before, since im mostly venting. i didnt have a good day yesterday and im still upset about it, and i shouldnt be taking it out on you. your a good RPer, and a good freind. your RPs are really fun, if slow at times. you consider my ideas and either allow them or shut them down with good reason. i shouldnt be critiquing you on your posts when im doing the same, since im not sure what to say to add on. i know im in the wrong, and im really sorry. im just used to having people let me run the show in the RPs, and provide the ideas. your RPs have you control the plot, which im not used to and im acting irresponsibly because of it. im really sorry, Kittbee. seriously. your ideas are great and your RPs are fun. there are just small things i notice and say to you about because im just not doing good IRL. im so sorry. will you forgive me?)

(I can. Just try to put in a little more of the effort, ok? There's nothing stopping you from adding storylines of your own, and that'd actually make the rp a lot more engaging on your end!)


Silvermist looks around, a little concerned.

(thanks! and im really sorry for how ive been acting. you see, im not doing well mentally. ive got some mental problems going on, and its caused me to act irrationally and violently. i shouldnt be taking that out on you. i just dont like change, and that includes me being "in charge" of the RP. so when im RPing with you, when your spending so long making these complex and fun plots and characters while i dont feel i can bring in my own things without ruining the flow of the RP, and im just crapping all over them even though you dont deserve it, thats on me. the longest i plan an RP out is for a few days, and then i wing it for when the OG plot is done. but then your here, planning every detail for A YEAR AND A HALF to make an amazing story and i just insult it to your face because im not used to that and that scares me, its wrong. im so sorry. im just scared and upset because your so good at this stuff that im scared people wont RP with me anymore and will go to yo instead, leaving me... alone. im sorry for talking bad about your RPs. theyre really great. im the one who should be being insulted. your not doing anything wrong, besides the parenthesis thing, but thats mainly to keep my mental health in check. honestly, i dont feel like i should RP with you anymore because your too good at thing :/. i just have a problem with self confidence, so RPing with a person like you, who makes amazing and well planned RPs compared to mine that are mostly made up scares me, and then i get defensive, which includes pointing out your flaws. you dont deserve that. im sorry, really. ill try to do better with what i said for you to do, because those are mainly my flaws im projecting onto you. i just need some help, and to expand my comfort zone. im sorry.

also, sorry for rambling. i do that when upset. in short, im in the wrong, because im scared and intimidated and ive got poor mental health, so i hurt you where it hurts most. im sorry, and ill try doing better. i hope you forgive me and i understand if you dont.)

she did the same, worried.

(Hey, don't talk down about yourself! Everybody has bad days, or bad weeks- heck, even bad years. I'm here for you if you need to vent! I enjoy role playing with you, so don't talk bad about you or your writing style. And of course I forgive you!)

And as far as forgetting things you've requested- please remind me. I can be super forgetful sometimes, and especially with school stuff going on and it being my senior year, stuff like that sometimes just kinda gets lost in the shuffle. I'm forgetful as heck and I'm fine with that, so please don't hesitate to remind me!)


Ysimara is a slow flyer, but it's been at least a day and a half by now. She's not that slow. She should've been here hours ago.

(god i feel like the worst kind of person. your a good person and a good RPer, and i just yelled those flaws right at your face when i had no right to. im a horrible person in comparison.)

Rose looked around, worried.

(Please don't talk bad about yourself)


She's not here. And clearly hasn't been here. The few scents of Ysi that Rose can find are from before the wttack.

(i mean, its true though. compare what i just told you to what you told me. you said so many great things about yourself and keep trying to forgive me while im a bad person who cant defend himself so i just take it out on others who shouldnt deal with that and likely doesnt deserve that forgiveness.)

she frowned, now scared.