Just random little tid-bits of whats up with me, just so I can say whatever or vent about small things [nothing really triggering, hopefully] or just like-- tell something funny or interesting that happened, y'know? You can reply --if you want-- with your own as well. You can basically watch my life fall apart in real-time.
9/28/20:
Just straight-up vibing to some music on spotify rn and drawing lmao. I'll post the playlist if anyone wants.
also havent participated in online school for a couple months, so I might get held back this year, idk, but I haven't had the most time and I'm also a procrastinator [a dang good one too].
9/29/20:
:^ fams fightin a lot but thats no change, but i did go to school today, I couldn't have my mic on but im getting slowly caught up with my work.
9/30/20
I'm making a suit, and I plan on selling it, I showed the design to a group of friends and they insulted the theme and just kept making me feel bad overall about it, I've made plenty of clothes before and I've sold quite a few as well. It was the original sketch [I've tweaked it since] but I dunno, I just feel really sh!tty right now. update: I'm taking the suit off sale and returning the fabrics. Maybe next time.
10/4/20
Catching up on schoolwork and whatnot, pretty boring to be honest but it's not like I have much else to do. Will likely update later if anything happens.
10/7/20
pretty uneventful day, I did have a panic attack in the middle of one of my classes though :D, that was.. fun. Mostly just role-playing on here and on Amino.
10/9/20
It's been fine. I know that's really vague but I don't know how else to explain it.
10/14/20
To be honest I'm just mentally exhausted, I don't have much motivation to do anything anymore.
11/14/20
I'm mostly over my slump, right now I would KILL for Disney to make a film about a soft, kind-hearted prince who's expected to marry a princess and become king but he refuses and sets off on a journey to be who he truly wants to be and not a handsome prince or a knight in shining armour. He could also meet some friends on the way who make him love himself for who he truly is and not who his father expects him to be. I swear I'm not projecting.
11/20/20
My school stopped doing in person stuff again, so now we're completely online until January, which is pretty neat tbh but I'd rather be doing in person because it's just easier for me. I have Dyscalculia, which is kinda like dyslexia but for math, so learning in person makes it easier for me, though because we only had half the school in at once the teacher still did zoom while we were in class so that was effecting my ability to actually get to understand because she'd completely ignore everyone who was actually in person and would just focus on whoever was on zoom.
11/21/20
hh, I know I said I was out of my rut but I've honestly just been feeling like sh^t lately. I don't want to go on another hiatus because I love everyone here, but to be honest I don't know, maybe that'd be better for me.
11/27/20
I spent 28 bucks on a gift for my niece, wrapping paper, and some tape, all in all I think I did pretty OK for prices. She's 6 and I bought her a little purple scooter, I know it's a little early for Christmas shopping but I figured since things are on sale today and on Monday for cyber-Monday that I should at least buy a few things.
12/1/20
Sh*ts actually been going pretty well for me lately, and I bought my siblings Christmas presents, I even bought my sister's husband a gift, I bought him an iron-man mug, since he loves iron man [mostly because his name is Tony and y'know...Tony Stark ha.. I know it's not going to last very long because the day Christmas actually comes everyone's going to start fighting again, and honestly I don't know how much more fighting we can take. May as well enjoy this while it lasts.
I spoke with a couple people on Amino, and they said that it gets better, but if it gets better then why the hell is it taking 13 godd*mn years to get their. My family's had these problems since before I was even born, and when I was born they only got worse because I was technically an accident, meaning I wasn't meant to be born in the first place and they've made it very clear that they don't want me, so I don't understand why they keep doing this 'fake-nice' garbage before Christmas. |
