My name is wolf kingdom and I just want to find someone who can relate to me. I want to find someone who knows how I feel. I have bipolar disorder and bipolar disorder is very hard to live with. I also have a lot of fear and I just want to find someone who understands how I feel. Having bipolar makes me feel sad a lot. I feel sad or happy or mad. I feel sad more than ever. I don't have a lot of real friends in real life. I feel pain when all of my emotions combine. I get confused when I feel sad and which hurts, as well. I just feel like I don't fit in this world and I feel all alone. I just want a real friend, a friend that I don't have to be careful with. I know people just read threads and some judge but I just wanted to say something. I want to create a club for awareness of Bipolar disorder but I don't know anyone who does in this world. I don't want to feel sad anymore and I want to stop pretending I am always happy. Thanks for reading this and sorry it is so long. You can reply if you want. I just want to not feel alone.

So I don't have bipolar myself (though I'm at pretty high risk, we'll see if I ever end up manic) but I've had plenty of good friends and even immediate family who have struggled with it.

I mostly suffer from depression, social anxiety, and PTSD (which in itself brings a lot of high and lows and really weird mixed emotional states, nevermind the added combo of the other two) so I can at least relate to the pain and isolation in similar ways.

There actually was a club made around here for mental illnesses (but it seems more or less inactive now. :/)

Still an anxiety club that's active, but.. Anxiety is kind of mild compared to BP (not to discredit anxiety disorders or anything), so I'm not sure how useful that would end up being for you in particular.

Still it may be good to try to meet people who also have mental health struggles going on for rapport, even if they don't exactly know your personal experience. It does take the edge off it a bit especially if you can find people that are way less judgemental because of their own personal struggles.

Either way, my inbox is always open if you need an ear to vent to or just want to bug me about anything.
Just remember that bipolar is sort of a rollercoaster, with every low, there is an upswing and it will pass. I do recommend you try to find some sort of treatment that works for you to help manage both ends of it if you're at all able to since I know how bad it can get when it goes unchecked.