Im going through a really rough time.the reasons are kinda complex and a bit long.

Ive been stressed so much in the last month, just coming off of a terrible antideppresant and trying to get my grades back up from it. On top of that, my friend has been stolen by someone who is a terrible person to others. Shes an egomaniac, rich, shoved me in the hall saying Move when it would be much easier to go around me, and essiantially a cliche rich bully. I dont know if people have said this, maybe Im just hearing things, but Ive heard them saying stuff like shed be better off dead and just kill yourself already.


And so I tried to.
It was a blur, I was trying to slam the door on myself, hit my head on the wall, anything.

My classmates found me in the gym bathroom, and took me to the vice principal. She called my parents and I went home. AND LESS THAN 24 HOURS LATER THEY WERE MAKING SUICIDE JOKES


I was gone the rest of the week, as my pharmapsyche got really nervous about it so she sent me to find a recovery therapy session.

And today, people were saying stuff like lol triggered and how triggered are you? This really hurt me because I know people and am one that deals with triggers daily. It isnt a stupid meme.
I think I snapped from all the stress. I screamed at them, began to cry, and left the class. When I returned, it was just doubled. They even said things to me like stop being so triggered so I went to work in the hallway.
And I heard the same things: shouldve finished the job, wouldve been better off dead.




Im lost. Im scared to tell anyone.

Thisby!
Please, don't go through with any of these plans. Obviously these people can't see what a wonderful person you are. It would be a tragedy to lose such a great person to a bunch of mean girls.

I've gone through this. My case wasn't so severe, but I don't trust anyone and have extreme stress and anxiety. I was almost family to these people and they betrayed me. To everyone. I was tortured every day. I almost transferred. I thought about cutting myself, but a close friend pulled me through.

Those people are stupid and blind if they can't see you are serious.

But please try to pull through. I have a friend who almost took her life a few months ago. With the support of family and close friends,she is back to normal. Stay strong Thisby.

Do not listen to them. These people are bad people. You know what? If they really have this kind of mentality and try to lead someone to their death (either on purpose or because they are too stupid to realize what they are saying is NOT simply a joke and that they are going way too far), the world would be better without THEM, not without you.

I know these are harsh words, I do not really wish for the death of anyone... Which is exactly why I have a strong hatred for bully like these people.

From what you mention, they made you leave a class to go sit outside. I guess it means that least one teacher had witnessed the bullying. Why didn't this teacher react?
Even if you are scared, you should speak to someone about this, before it's too late. At least to your parents. Then they could go speaking about this situation to the school director.
These bullies try to lead you to suicide, they can't really go further than this to make your life miserable. If the situation do not evolve, you should consider asking to go to another school.

I speak from the point of view of someone who has suffered from depression, and who had similar problems at school when she was younger (in middle school).

Thisby! Please don't do that!

Don't listen to them, they only want to hurt you.

They only want to hurt people because they've been hurt, but that doesn't justify the way they treat you. Why, if I went to your school and if I was treated like that I would already be sobbing on the floor I would've probably done the same thing. (Well, it would be a lot more violent and involve me throwing chairs.)

[Trust me I've seen things like this before. Another friend of mine on Amino had tried to commit suicide, she even wrote a goodbye and everything. (She was offline for hours and everyone thought she was dead.) It turns out her father had managed to talk her out of it.]

[Another friend of mine cuts and no matter how hard we tried, me and GreenBean couldn't talk her out of hurting herself.]

Listen, what I'm trying to say is: I'm here, we're here, the community is here for you no matter what.

The world is harsh, kids can be -beep!-.

Ignore those kids, they can crawl into a hole and rot for what they've done to you.

So if you need to talk or rant, we can have a fully fledged rant together if you'd like.

Find an adult and talk to them, it works, it helps. (Unless you hold grudges like me and lash out at your former bullies violently.)

(Last summer I dealt with plenty of mean girls who actually physically and emotionally hurt me, so I can relate on most subjects.)

(Sorry this sounds cheesy and sappy, I'm not good at expressing what I feel via typing.)

I'm so sorry... No one deserves to go through that. My mother was suicidal when she was in college. Her dad didn't care about her and his girlfriend tried to kill her. She was all alone, and saw no reason not to end her life. The only reason she didn't was because she knew no one would take care of her cat when she was gone. Shortly after that, she met my dad, which gave her something to look forward to and live for. My mom is now thankful everyday that she decided to live. I am not saying that your life will ever be all peachy, but I wish with every inch of my being it was. I guess I am just saying that you will thank yourself someday, I promise. And honestly, the bullying that is going on, I am pretty sure is illegal. Especially the teachers that overlook it. Even you haven't talk to the principle already, please try. And if that doesn't work, try the police. Your life is very valuable, please take care of it.