The worst feeling is realizing you're not anybody's favorite person, you're just kind of there. The actual thought settles in and you get the sudden urge to distance yourself from everyone and chill alone.
Then you sit there, half expecting someone to want to talk to you until you remember how annoying you get when you're comfortable. There's nothing you can do except sit there in silence, thoughts overrunning your mind until your judgement gets cloudy and everything feels numb.
At one point you were someone's favorite person, possibly a pet, but now they're gone and you're at a loss because you're unsure if anyone even cares about you.
I feel so hollow, I try to give free pets to fill in the gap, but it only seems to worsen. I don't like existing. I try to fit in, but I feel like I'm being pushed away. All I ever hope for is just a 'hi'. I feel like no one notices me. I'm just going to stop talking in region chat.
I doubt anyone would even notice if I was gone, but that's okay, I suppose.
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